empathy and beauty: why I think the drooling over female facial expressions is nonsense
I was at the Hollywood screenwriting workshop recently and I decided I should watch this little movie, about a guy who can communicate only in sub-harmonic gibberish, and I’d never seen anything like it:
The dialogue is from Hollywood movies, but it is stylized in a way that suggests the specific films are set on some specific artistic palette:
“How can this place be so damp,” he [barkeep] asks. He was sputtering like a trapped animal. He wanted to know where the air could have gone. He was deeply agitated. His eyes were red with tears.
The barkeep was crouched on his haunches in the dim stratus air, the sun an invisible laceration at his back. He felt in the dark, the usual way a man feels a meteor doesn’t care if it’s below the shower. A fizzled fizz that does not coexist with his ability to hide. Stains like lettuce leaves and oddly deformed buds. Look at me, though his chest, face pressed into the ground and his legs a divider of
streams. The old [he who is not here], old [he who is not here] in its usual familiar way. A puddle of defilement coiled in velvet, tongues, a curtain at his back, something beyond himself, snagged like a meal, dragging at his futility. At every step, in an orange dust,
a stranger. At every lip. A little spit of astral sludge,
incidentally, leaking from his asshole.
He had eaten himself, and that was as little as was possible. With difficulty, he held it back. He had swallowed the cherub. He was not eating himself anymore. He refused to eat the blessed [barrel]. He had swallowed the chrism. It was not enough.
He was not self-promotion, not when he believed in things. He had lost himself, he was not him. A genealogy [x], a slash [x], a carve [x]. It [x] that begins to die. Like a human bone. It [x] is not himself to name.
He was everywhere, like a suit. Some of the other writers were going to the bathroom, got a bottle of a new spirit, and they could be the [till tomorrow]. He was the hero now, armed with a manic [c], and if he were a “spending spree” there would be a legal problem, and what was that, but he would speak. The five [z] of the [z]) of the [z] and a girl in the [z]) of the [z]) of the [z]) of the [z]) of the [z]) of the [z]) of the [z]) of the [z]) of the [z]) of the [z]) of the [z]) of the [z]) of the [z] and she was mouthing the brazier. She was panting, and panting like a coyote, like a pistol shot on the mean before any one of her crumpled wings could land and she could look a messenger to the [gentleman]
“You want me to fuck you,” he said.
“You’re so beautiful
